The past couple of weeks was pretty interesting to say the least. There is lots of internal questions of “Am I good enough?”, “Am I likeable?”, “Was it something I did or something I said?”. These questions of self-worth were a reminder of a time in my pre-teens when I was hoping people would like me and afraid that I wouldn’t have a friend to sit with at recess..
This feeling of not belonging and not being good enough is something everyone has experienced at some stage in their childhood. I also believe that how we perceive this experience leaves a very lasting effect on our subconscious.
It was not long ago, I got a new bullet journal and set-out with new intentions to stick to. One of those intentions is; Look after my body and mind. When I wrote this, I was intending to consciously make decision to go to the gym, to move my body, make good nutritional choices as well as practice daily meditation. You know, personal growth stuff. However, I didn’t think that ‘looking after my mind’ would actually mean protecting myself from my own mind. I agree, this is a mental stretch for me too but bare with me. While sitting and feeling into my negative emotions, I question where in my past these emotional triggers are stemmed from? Not long later I stumbled upon this article called, The “That’s a Lie” Program: https://keyholejourney.wordpress.com/2016/07/21/the-thats-a-lie-program/ I had to step back and reassess how these emotions are most likely a false believe of feeling not good enough. The hard question I had to ask myself was; “Was it something someone did or didn’t do that caused me to feel this way? Or… was it my own ego that created this?”
This was hard question for me to sit with because in my mind, it is easier to blame someone for this negative feelings. But if I were to be frank, a more empowering realisation would be to acknowledge that no one can do or say anything that could cause me to be unhappy, it is actually how I perceive of myself that determines the long term effect on me.
So where do we start?
Well firstly, to get out of this negative perceptions about ourselves that we have unknowingly created in the past.
How do we shift the perspective?
Something I found that helped me came from the a quote, “Be the person that you needed when you were younger.”
Find a picture of yourself around the time you were 5 to 12 years old.
Find a quiet place in your home where you can focus on reliving you at that age. The scenerio that was projected in front of you that caused you to feel unworthy (eg. something someone said that hurt your feelings)… And now, visualise you, as you are now, approaching this little girl, and telling her how worthy and how powerful she really is, empower her to deal with the same scenarios but differently, changing the outcome to an empowering one. Change the past (energetically and emotionally while in the present) with an empowering belief every time that voice inside your head tries to take your power away. Keep going at it, until your mind hardwires emotions of empowerment and self-worthiness.
Energy goes where attention flows. When we do the work, we bring positivity back into ourselves and we exude that to the people around us. In other words, be the change that we want to see. As Sherry Swiney said, when you stop feeding parasites with fear, they will eventually have nothing left to live on.
